Friday, May 14, 2010

Maybe Marriage?

I've been thinking a lot about my vocation lately; however, it has not been in the direction of the religious life. I have felt a very strong desire for the sacrament of Matrimony. Of course, that could just be me finding another way of distracting myself from school, as a means of escape.

Yet, the girly side of me loves to indulge in the thought of a man earning my love...a beautiful proposal in front of the Tabernacle...the wedding...first kiss...reception at home...honeymoon...making our cozy little home together...the joy of telling my hubby that he's made the daddy team...I could go on and on.

It's hard to not feel like I'm stuck and going no where; school and work, work and school. Luckily, I have the most loving, caring, and understanding man in the world with me: Jesus. Whenever I'm having a hard time, scared, or upset, I love just to say His name, Jesus. Jesus. Jesus. It's such a beautiful comfort.

So until I discover my true vocation - and even after - my Jesus will be my love.

3 comments:

Janet said...

It's been the same way for me too!

Claire said...

Vicki, how simply and beautifully you express those very natural, human longings of the feminine heart. :) And how comforting it is to know that regardless of our vocational call, the first Prince of our hearts is ever near to fill and ravish them!

Proverbs 3:5-6 said...

Hi!

This is a beautiful post. I'm sure so many girls can relate to this! It's so cool thinking about those things!! Gets you soo excited. I want to reccomed to you this podcast. My Sr. Maris Stella who is a Nashville Dominican. Go to iTunes and look if Christendom College and its under Discernment Weekend. Labeled " Being a Nashville Dominican" It is such an outlet for me whatever vocation God has for us!
Blessings,
Bianca
www.twaofabusycatholicgirl.blogspot.com